December 2008
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“socializing made me realize how fucking lonely everyone is.”
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okay, hellish week ended.
i thought i’ve matured up, but it turned out that i’m still the same old stupid girl. worrying two weeks before huge exams and papers is fine, but ONLY worrying isn’t. i was so screwed because i had one day to write a ten page paper, AND study for a calc test. then a day for both genetics and physics. to cut things short, i zombie’d through those four days or so. slept on...
dah nak finals, tapi ketawa besar masa ni
K walks into my room, wearing her green scarf in a silly turban.
Me: yes?
K: Kau rasa aku boleh cross the bridge* tak pakai macam ni?
Me: Tak. tak yah perasan sharda** (pronounced shar-dayy)
K: Damn
Me: kalau pakai macam ni orang mesti bisik*** kat aku "K dah masuk Islam**** ke?"
K: DIAMM
*there is a bridge near campus, if you cross it, chances are 1/10 that you will be robbed, banyak pak tam gangster malam-malam. across this bridge is an "area without civilization" bak kata k. once, a gun was also heard across the bridge.
**perempuan hitam gemuk aka student advisor at the store where i worked
***k is with a malay guy. her malay friends still did not know this, as she just ignored them everytime they asked. yesterday, in our car, while she was sleeping, they asked me, in hushed, gossipy tones, if she was indeed with him. i find it terribly funny. i informed her of this incident.
****refer to ***
tak nak start study lagi. siapa cipta finals?
K: Aku nak boyfriend macam ni *points and describes what i can't remember*
Me: Aku nak boyfriend kaya
K: Eww
Me: Kalau tak kaya kena handsome, ha
K: Eww
Me: Kalau tak handsome kena... *fikir seratus tahun*...
K: bollywood?
Me: ...tinggi
K: Bodoh.
in denial finals lagi dua minggu, but this was...
Me: Aku nak cari beast la
K: betul ke?
Me: Beast yang kaya la
K: Aku rasa banyak yang beast je
Me: yang ada library la
Me: Kalau tak tinggi kene beast kaya
Finals dah nak dekat
Me: pelik tak if i go to germany, and the only person i know there is a guy i've never met?
K: aku rasa macam romantic je
Me: taik. aku takde niat tu pun.
K: *muka ada angan-angan, atau vision yang jahat* betul. macam nak seek the one je. aku akan call parents kau, sakinah kan...
Me: ...
K: bila kau nak pergi? this summer ke?
Me: aku takde duit. (baru lepas check bank account, tragic. cukup-cukup for rent until habis contract) kau ikut aku nak?
K: please. aku tak nak jadi lightbulb. nanti bila kau nak kawin lari kat church, kau call aku. oh, kau kawin kat cliff la. aku suka kawin spontaneous. takyah fikir apa-apa, best.
K: lepas tu consequence dia-
Me & K, together, cause we habiskan ayat each other, and actually byk je mcm tu tapi complicated nak type: pun best la
Me: nak cliff kat india, best. ramai orang suicide pasal unrequited love and stuff kat situ.
K: yeesh. (she hates it when i india-obsess) dia macam beast ke?
Me: tak, muka dia macam kau
K: HAA betul ke?
Me: heh. bukan german la
K: aku tau la kau suka melayu. tinggi ke? beast? hitam ke?
Me: kena beast dalam enchanted castle la
K: germany banyak castle la. lawa lawa
Semalam. I was browsing degrees and job prospects. My heart is moving more and more towards the Humanities, but I am under a Biotechnology loan/scholarship. Pretty much in a dilemma. My housemate termed it ‘your bio shit’. Deep shit. She’s under Economics, but hates it and so is double-majoring - currently applying for graduate school for Psychology. Graduating in 5 months, cina...
Me: what's your plan kalau tak dapat masuk grad school?
K: kan aku dah beritahu kau, cari kerja la. lepas tu aku nak blablabla... (insert narrative 10minit)... lepas tu aku nak pergi spain, portugal, lepas tu aku nak pergi south africa. (i've heard all this before).
Me: ...
K: apsal? kau ada plan nak kahwin ngan aku ke?